The Fight With Fate.

Over the past few years I've wondered why fate hated me so much; Then the other day it all became so clear. It's afraid of me and what i can do. I have the ability to bend and twist fate to meet my own needs and wants. I know this sounds a bit silly so let me give you a bit of background about me and some of the things that have happened to me. When i was younger i had déjà vu and premonitions all the time. I would have dreams about things that would happen in the near future. Right after i move down here i noticed the dreams and premonitions started to come less frequently until they stopped all together. The last one i had was right after i moved here i was driving my car and i got this sudden feeling that i would get struck from behind and then on my passenger side. I felt completely fine with this for some reason. I Called my best friend and my mom to tell them and right as i turned a corner I saw Police cars and a Firetruck rushing by. I looked and saw a car that had recently been struck from behind into an intersection and then on the passenger side. I wish to this day that i had stopped and saw who they were or something. But i didn't and that was my last big premonition. Since then tho I've begun to notice that when i really want something to happen i can will it to happen. From little things such as being hungry and willing someone to give me free food or dating an "untouchable" model.

I realized all this the other day while eating some food that i had been eyeing while at work. They ended up messing up the order somehow so they gave me the food. :) But it was then that everything came together. You know how in movies and cartoons people get that light bulb above their head when they get an idea? Thats exactly what it felt like, there was almost and audible "click" when i realized it. All these years i couldn't figure out why fate always found a way to screw me over yet i was somehow able to get things i really wanted. I'm sure this doesn't make much sense to many of you but i don't know if i can properly explain it. Other than that i have horrible overall luck, yet i have really strange good luck.... Oh wait or if you have ever Read the Alvin Maker series (By Orson Scott Card);its a lot like that. With sheer force of will i can make things happen yet bad things always seem to befall me.

So since Fate knows i really want to become an actor I'm sure its going to do everything in its power to hinder me (and its been doing a good job so far) but i know I'll be able to over come everything it throws at me. I plan to either be famous or at least pretty well known by the end of the year and if I have this ability like I say I do; I KNOW i will be. :)

Welp thats just a lil random update. Sorry i don't post on here more often. So much has been going on since i last updated. I got a new job, i was on a Billboard in Times Square for a week, i Filmed a short Indie film with friend of mine I've been wanting to work with for years and I auditioned for a few pretty big things and hopefully something will come from it.

Love you all <3
-LL

The River stone and my thoughts on being famous.

The River Stone

Shaping and transforming me.
Molding me into the man i will become.
Currents wear at my exterior until all thats left is my true form.
Cold and rushing; I feel the currents passing by.
Never Slowing or giving me a second glance.
Cold and lonely; I sit here waiting for a particularly curious one to catch me up.
I can feel my form changing shape and slowly ebbing away.
I watch as other stones around me get plucked up.
Hoping and praying I'm caught up before I'm worn to nothing.

I hear people talk about how becoming famous has changed someone and others tell me not to change when i become famous. But heres the thing. I'm my mind i am already famous. So why would my personality change when I'm already what i expect to become? Only weak people who don't truly know who they are change under the pressure of being famous. I'm not a weak person, i already know who i am and i already know that I am famous. I'm just waiting patiently on the world to realize it as well. Oh and another thing that is actually a pet peeve of mine is when people say "Will you forget me when your famous?" My answer to them? If you really have to ask me that question then chances are i will forget you. There are a select few people that i consider my true friends and those are the ones i plan on taking with me to the top. Most people nowadays lose interest in me or stop talking to me within a year of friendship. Why should I remember those people when I'm on the top of the world?


In other news I've been thinking up some ideas for stories and short films. I have a friend i will be working with to try and make them a reality. I just figure since i cant find any acting opportunities in Florida; i have to make my own.

A new job flips lights on valentines day

This week has been one of the best weeks in a long long long long time. To start it off i got a new job one that will give me the hours i need and at a decent pay rate too. So hopefully i will be able to save up and move out of this state by the end of the year just like i planned. then on wednesday i was lurking on twitter when i saw that Jeremythebug was giving away tickets to the Lights show In Ft Lauderdale the next day. I entered not thinking i would win because he had tweeted it about 5 minutes before. Yet some how i DID win. So i called up my friend tony and we made plans. We drove down to Miami at 4am got there at around 8:30am. Went to South beach to see what all the hype was about. It was alright, the water was GORGEOUS, and the people were all super sexy. but the shops and stuff werent all that great and only a small strip was nice the rest all looked like ghetto.

Oh oh oh right, the night before the concert right after i found out i won tickets to her show i went out and bought a Flip MinoHD so i could record stuff in Miami and the Lights show. They normally cost about $229 but i was able to get one for $179. pretty stoked about that. Anywho back to my story... South beach was alright. Got loads of free stuff because there was a huge Super Bowl party going on. Also got a "I WAS IN MIAMI BITCH" T-shirt and leopard speedo shorts. We left Miami at about 2:30pm and drove an hour north to Ft Lauderdale for the Lights concert. I'd go into detail but im sure you really dont want to hear it so let me just say this: Lights is as amazing and sweet as her music is. She is beautiful both on the outside AND the inside. She truly cares about her fans, even the whiny baby ones (yea that would be me...) and will take time out of her busy schedule to comfort them. Her sound mixer was amazing. The sound quality was almost studio quality. Lights commanded the stage like a pro. Her smile brightening the room even when it was completely dark. After she played tony and i left the stage area and went over near the merch tables to hangout for a bit since we didnt really want to see Owl City.. We ended up talking to this girl we had seen earlier who actually knew the drummer in Lights's band. So he came over to hangout too. We didnt get to see lights after the concert at her merch table because Tony was tired and still had a 5 hour drive a head of him, So we left.

Then today was my official first day at my new job. I had a blast, since the restaurant hasn't opened yet and they are still training the cooks i got to try almost the ENTIRE menu. And i have to say, their food is AMAZING!

Now the last bit that really made my whole week complete is today i got an email from a friend asking me if id like to film an indie film on valentines day. It's kind of a long drive but i've been wanting to work with him for years now, so I dont mind in the least. Super excited about it, the script looks solid and i know that he will make the msot of this film. I'll update more when i can but for now here is a link to its FB page: Candy (2010) When i get a bit more information i'll be spreading the word more and if would be fantastic if you all could too. So become a fan of the page and help us out!!!

Well that pretty much sums up my fantastically amazing week. I really dont want it to end but I'm looking forward to what next week might hold.

Later
-Lance

Remembering the River stone

I was complaining about women one day and how it never seems to work out; when my good friend Jaie responded with this amazing piece of advice. I try my best to live up to it:

"They come and go, buddy. The best thing is to let them flow through like water through stones, each taking their little bit, but leaving an ever so subtle impression upon your shape. Like the river stone, if you let the water pass, you will be rounded and wise after time. A word of warning, don't try and stop or hold them. Dams and waterfalls are only temporary and bound to wear down.

Women are like water indeed. They can be soothing and peaceful, beauty shone in their crystal clear faces; the pure sky and healing light of the sun reflected to those who behold them. They can also be fickle mistresses, drowning, crushing, freezing, battering anything foolish enough to trust a calm facade when a storm is just beyond the horizon.

So remember the river stone. Let the river pass by and through, and maybe someday a particularly curious current will catch you up."

-Jaie Bemis