The Fight With Fate.

Over the past few years I've wondered why fate hated me so much; Then the other day it all became so clear. It's afraid of me and what i can do. I have the ability to bend and twist fate to meet my own needs and wants. I know this sounds a bit silly so let me give you a bit of background about me and some of the things that have happened to me. When i was younger i had déjà vu and premonitions all the time. I would have dreams about things that would happen in the near future. Right after i move down here i noticed the dreams and premonitions started to come less frequently until they stopped all together. The last one i had was right after i moved here i was driving my car and i got this sudden feeling that i would get struck from behind and then on my passenger side. I felt completely fine with this for some reason. I Called my best friend and my mom to tell them and right as i turned a corner I saw Police cars and a Firetruck rushing by. I looked and saw a car that had recently been struck from behind into an intersection and then on the passenger side. I wish to this day that i had stopped and saw who they were or something. But i didn't and that was my last big premonition. Since then tho I've begun to notice that when i really want something to happen i can will it to happen. From little things such as being hungry and willing someone to give me free food or dating an "untouchable" model.

I realized all this the other day while eating some food that i had been eyeing while at work. They ended up messing up the order somehow so they gave me the food. :) But it was then that everything came together. You know how in movies and cartoons people get that light bulb above their head when they get an idea? Thats exactly what it felt like, there was almost and audible "click" when i realized it. All these years i couldn't figure out why fate always found a way to screw me over yet i was somehow able to get things i really wanted. I'm sure this doesn't make much sense to many of you but i don't know if i can properly explain it. Other than that i have horrible overall luck, yet i have really strange good luck.... Oh wait or if you have ever Read the Alvin Maker series (By Orson Scott Card);its a lot like that. With sheer force of will i can make things happen yet bad things always seem to befall me.

So since Fate knows i really want to become an actor I'm sure its going to do everything in its power to hinder me (and its been doing a good job so far) but i know I'll be able to over come everything it throws at me. I plan to either be famous or at least pretty well known by the end of the year and if I have this ability like I say I do; I KNOW i will be. :)

Welp thats just a lil random update. Sorry i don't post on here more often. So much has been going on since i last updated. I got a new job, i was on a Billboard in Times Square for a week, i Filmed a short Indie film with friend of mine I've been wanting to work with for years and I auditioned for a few pretty big things and hopefully something will come from it.

Love you all <3
-LL