Finally starting my journey

It seems thngs are starting to pick up...

Had an audition on Tuesday, got the part and filmed on Wendnesday. It was a commercial for UbreakiFix.com They specialize in Fixing iPhone problems that aren't covered by the warrenty. As for "Backwoods Killer", Production has been put on hold til the end of the year... Haven't talked to the director since the day we filmed. (which was hell)

We keep losing more and more drivers at work so i keep getting more and more hours. Which is fantastic since I'm making more money, but bad since that also mean it will be harder for me to get shifts covered when i need to do films.

sorry this update is so short, i just am exhausted. going to go take a quick nap before work.

Love you all.

-Lance

ロンリードライバー\ "Lonely Driver"

Who needs women when I've got a beautiful 1 ton firecracker of a lady sitting in my driveway just BEGGING for my attention. She'll never leave me or cheat on me, and if I treat her right I'll be able to keep her around for years to come. She doesn't get upset when I suggest modifications to her unsightly areas or if i look at newer faster models. No matter how hard I ride her she's always ready for more. She doesn't care if I'm rich or poor, If I have confidence or extreme self esteem issues. She loves me no matter what.

I realized tonight while driving home that the only time I feel completely at ease/one with myself/In my element is when I'm driving. As I Drove past the entrance for I-95 i had to resist all of my urges to turn, hop on it, and let it lead me south to Miami. I always feel so alive so full of confidence when I drive. I know that I'm not the best driver, and I'm still learning how to drive Manual. But its the one thing i feel like im decently good at. Actually, im STILL resisting that urge to take a road trip. I mean i have tomorrow off and $200 in the bank so theres nothing really stopping me from going. Nothing except for my own will, and knowledge that i need to be saving up so i can move to NY or Cali, whichever calls me first.

I've kind of ran out of steam. I had more i wanted to talk about but im hungry and my food should be done soon. So this is all you'll get for now.

Ja na

Delivery Boy Race Wars

I've realized recently I have a problem with responding to people. Whether it be comments, Messages, texts, anything. Its just, I usually read them when I'm busy or on the go so its hard to respond. Then when I have the time I get distracted and then forget about them. I feel bad because the majority of the time I DO want to respond. And i know how much it sucks when people don't respond to me. So i feel like crap because I think they think I don't like them and am just ignoring them. :/


Ok so over the past couple of days I've had some ideas for stories and such. One of them I think would work better as oh shoot I don't know. But here's the idea for it: A gun that looks like fingers and a hand to everyone EXCEPT for the person it's pointed at.

Second idea is a story. It's about delivery boys, and how the only way to become a delivery boy is to take out the current one. There is no "applying" for the position. You just have to be able to out-race/crash the driver. Something i would like to add to that idea is that The different Delivery boys form different restaurants all form their own gangs. So instead of wearing all red or all blue, each gang wears their respective companies logo. They all meet up at night (around midnight-ish) in old abandoned K-mart parking lots. They race the "back streets" of the cities driving down the suburban or residential areas of the city where the speed limits are usually 25-30miles/hr. the races would be set up so each driver would be given an address to get to and the first one there would win (much like having to deliver the pizza) So the one with more knowledge of the "course" would ultimately win. Using short cuts and the like..... I just don't know how to go about writing it is all. I need characters of course. And I need to figure out how I would structure it. Blaaah. mmm well luckily I will have LOADS more time on my hands for doing creative stuff.


ok ummm well i mostly just wrote this to waste some time before i attempted sleep. I may update a more detailed account of this weekend tomorrow.

Good night all. <3 xx

Friends

"Friends are those who laugh together, sing together, and cry together.
Those who dine, whine, and occasionally quarrel with each other.
And also those who will fight, side by side, back to back.
It's someone you can depend your life on."

-Pwyll from 'Tears to Tiara'

I'm LOVING this anime. It's a splendid combination of stories like, Arthur, The bible and role playing stories. Its integrated beautifully and almost has the feel of a video game. At points it even sounds like one. Occasionally when the main character swings his sword he grunts just like link does in Zelda. So if you like RPG style books (aka High Fantasy) such as Eragon, LOTR, The Wheel of Time and the like, Or if you enjoy the story of Aurther (tho this has a slight twist to it) then i think you would enjoy this anime.

haha whoops, didnt mean for this to be an anime review. I was just watching an episode of it and that quote caught my eye. I had to post it somewhere and i figured why not here? Anyways thats all for now, im going to finish watching 'Tears to Tiara'
-Ja na

Information overload!

I've Noticed over the past year or so that i am becoming more and more attracted to older women. I used to only be attracted to girls younger then me. But after all the crap and drama i have gone through because of them, I'm no longer interested. I mean don't get me wrong, I still think that they are cute/sexy or whatever. I just don't want to date any of them any more. I need a more mature woman. Even though some of these girls say they are mature for their age, they all still do stupid immature things. I'm sick of teenagers (18-19 I'm NOT a pedophile sheeesh haha). So from now on no matter how attracted to them i am I refuse to date them if they are under 20. even that is a tricky age, I'd much rather someone my age or older. Now back to what i originally was getting at. I'm finding myself attracted to older women, and by older women i mean women double my age. Now at this point in my life I'm really not looking for a relationship. Relationships i have found are about 80% of the time more hassle then they are actually worth. I have enough stress in my life as it is i really dont need the added stress of a woman as well. I just want to have some fun, live a little, fool around, do new things, just enjoy life. I do know I'd like to hook up with an older woman as well but i don't exactly know how to go about doing that.


On to a completely different subject... Yesterday I saw someone post post this comment on a Gay pride video and it got me to thinking,

"How can heaven be so wonderful anyway if all the gays are in hell?? Must be dull as dishwater!!!"

-Haydndw

If all the gay people are really going to hell wouldn't the straight supporters be going too. Also if all the people Catholics and other Christians say are going to hell, go. well then who is going to be left in heaven? The stuck up snobby conservative Christians? Man that heaven really doesn't sound all that appealing. I really couldn't care how beautiful and amazing it is, if those are the people I'm stuck with for an eternity i think I'd rather go to hell and hangout with all the fun people haha. I guess i just don't understand how humans can say who will and who won't get into heaven. I mean isn't it God's choice? I know the bible says God specifically forbids homosexuality but i have a problem with that. The Bible was written by humans and and edited by the Catholics. Who left out entires books because they didn't like them. Who's to say they didn't edit parts of the bible to better suit their needs? Another thing is, even if God is against homosexuality. Christians are always interpreting the bible and saying that all sins are equal in the eyes of God. If that's so, then are all the people bashing gays sinless? No, so how is it they can judge others when they themselves are "unclean." Now I'm not trying to bash Christians (considering i am one) I just think the whole system is flawed.


Switching subjects yet again! Yesterday was an interesting day. I slept in until 2pm (having gone to bed at 8am). I drove to New Smyrna Beach and walked for about 2 hours.I walked literally til my feet bled, Flip flops were NOT the smartest choice. As i was on my way back my friend Billy texted me saying he had just gotten off work and was nearby. So he picked me up and drove me the last 1/4 mile to my car haha. We decided to get Coldstone ice-cream after he went out to dinner with his family. I went home and got cleaned up. When the time came i drove the 15 minute drive to Ocean Walk. Parked in the parking garage and walked to Coldstone. As i was 6 or so feet from the door, arm stretched out in anticipation of opening the door. One of the workers walked up to the GLASS door, looked out it , saw me smiled and promptly locked the door. I just stood there jaw dropped and slightly heartbroken. I texted Billy letting him know of our predicament and walked back to my car. As i walked back i ran into one of my only otehr friends in daytona: Sally. We talked for a couple minutes and then went our seperate ways. I got to the bottom of the parking garage and handed the lady my parking ticket. I ended up having to pay $1.00! i was soo upset. I know that doesnt seem like much, but after wasting all that time and gas to drive out there, having to use my toll change to pay it and NOT getting the ice cream. It was pretty upsetting i promise. So i drove the 15 minute drive back to my house planning on stopping at Ritters on the way home since its right around the corner from my house.Ritters is usually open a bit later so i figured we'd be able to get ice cream there. As i pulled into the parking lot i noticed things were unusually dark. I check the clock, its only 10:20, i should be fine. So i get out and walk to the front of the place. They close at 10pm sSun-Thurs and at 10:30 Fri-Sat. So we missed out there too. Devistated andheartbroken we made plans for wednesday and then went home. On the drive home i noticed my car was acting weirder then usual. I already knew that the alignment was way off so the car pulls extremely hard to the right. So much so that if i let go of the wheel the car jerks almost as if someone is sitting in the passenger seat pulling the wheel down hard towards them. Anyways my new dilema is the car shakes violently. Almost as if i have a flat tie (which i dont, checked um all) I'm really worried about this too. I'm just waiting for soemthing to snap while im driving. Its so frustrating because i've needed a car for so long and now when i thinki finally have one its on the verge of dying.

Phew ok. Wow to think i wrote this all when i was laying down to sleep haha. Sorry about the length. I was just on a roll tonight and didnt really feel like shortening or splitting it into parts. If any of you made it through and reads this part, i will mail you a cookie. ;) Ja na

just a quickie to pass the time.

I live too much in other peoples worlds and not enough in mine. I don't know how to anymore.

I watch so many movies, TV shows and read books diving deep and losing myself in their worlds that i think i have forgotten how to live in my own. I complain a bit too much too. So I'm making it my mission over the next couple of weeks to revamp myself. I'm going to start putting myself out there. Going to force myself to have more confidence. Watching the new "the Station" video today really made me rethink a few things. Dax Flame (an awkward and dorky boy) easily walked up to and made conversation with beautiful girls, yet i cant even walk up to an ugly girl. haha Its sad that he has so much more confidence then i do.

Another thing i want to do is email all the people in my life that just stopped talking to me for no reason. Whether they were friends or girls i was dating/talking to. I'm thinking of emailing them and asking why they did. If it was something about my personality, if I annoyed them or if they just grew bored of me. Right now I'm trying to think of how to word the letter in order to get the most responses.

I'm still getting used to this whole Writing out blogs thing. I really don't know what to write that would be of any interest to anyone. I plan on (once i get the hang of this whole blogging thing) making another blog for critiquing movies. I watch enough movies and i almost ALWAYS have something to say about them so i figure i might as well share my opinions with everyone else. I think I'm going to do some research on how to better utilize my blogs such as adding videos polls pictures and what not. I want to have them have a good setup that's pleasing to the eyes

To New Beginnings

I'd like to start this blog out by telling you a bit of what you should expect to see during your time here. I live in the town of Daytona Beach, where nothing exciting ever happens (except for during bike week and spring break) everything closes down at around 9pm so i end up having to think up ways to entertain myself. Heres a list of a few of the things I've done that should give you an idea of what kind of nonsense to expect in the future.

• Drag racing in my moms mini Van against a corvette
• Building sand castles on the beach at 3am
• Going to the mall and making a video about Fanta
• Drinking non-alcoholic drinks and acting drunk in public
• Setting random things on fire in my back yard.
• Yelling out random things in public just for a reaction
• Random acts of kindness
• Hugging strangers

The list goes on, but im sure you get an idea by now. I plan on updating this blog as much as possible. If you want to be kept more up to date feel free to follow my twitter. I post links to various things i find on the internet and usually just random happenings in my life. I shall post Something with more soul and feeling tomorrow (or later today?) since it is 4:47 and my brain shut off about an hour or 2 ago.