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I've Noticed over the past year or so that i am becoming more and more attracted to older women. I used to only be attracted to girls younger then me. But after all the crap and drama i have gone through because of them, I'm no longer interested. I mean don't get me wrong, I still think that they are cute/sexy or whatever. I just don't want to date any of them any more. I need a more mature woman. Even though some of these girls say they are mature for their age, they all still do stupid immature things. I'm sick of teenagers (18-19 I'm NOT a pedophile sheeesh haha). So from now on no matter how attracted to them i am I refuse to date them if they are under 20. even that is a tricky age, I'd much rather someone my age or older. Now back to what i originally was getting at. I'm finding myself attracted to older women, and by older women i mean women double my age. Now at this point in my life I'm really not looking for a relationship. Relationships i have found are about 80% of the time more hassle then they are actually worth. I have enough stress in my life as it is i really dont need the added stress of a woman as well. I just want to have some fun, live a little, fool around, do new things, just enjoy life. I do know I'd like to hook up with an older woman as well but i don't exactly know how to go about doing that.


On to a completely different subject... Yesterday I saw someone post post this comment on a Gay pride video and it got me to thinking,

"How can heaven be so wonderful anyway if all the gays are in hell?? Must be dull as dishwater!!!"

-Haydndw

If all the gay people are really going to hell wouldn't the straight supporters be going too. Also if all the people Catholics and other Christians say are going to hell, go. well then who is going to be left in heaven? The stuck up snobby conservative Christians? Man that heaven really doesn't sound all that appealing. I really couldn't care how beautiful and amazing it is, if those are the people I'm stuck with for an eternity i think I'd rather go to hell and hangout with all the fun people haha. I guess i just don't understand how humans can say who will and who won't get into heaven. I mean isn't it God's choice? I know the bible says God specifically forbids homosexuality but i have a problem with that. The Bible was written by humans and and edited by the Catholics. Who left out entires books because they didn't like them. Who's to say they didn't edit parts of the bible to better suit their needs? Another thing is, even if God is against homosexuality. Christians are always interpreting the bible and saying that all sins are equal in the eyes of God. If that's so, then are all the people bashing gays sinless? No, so how is it they can judge others when they themselves are "unclean." Now I'm not trying to bash Christians (considering i am one) I just think the whole system is flawed.


Switching subjects yet again! Yesterday was an interesting day. I slept in until 2pm (having gone to bed at 8am). I drove to New Smyrna Beach and walked for about 2 hours.I walked literally til my feet bled, Flip flops were NOT the smartest choice. As i was on my way back my friend Billy texted me saying he had just gotten off work and was nearby. So he picked me up and drove me the last 1/4 mile to my car haha. We decided to get Coldstone ice-cream after he went out to dinner with his family. I went home and got cleaned up. When the time came i drove the 15 minute drive to Ocean Walk. Parked in the parking garage and walked to Coldstone. As i was 6 or so feet from the door, arm stretched out in anticipation of opening the door. One of the workers walked up to the GLASS door, looked out it , saw me smiled and promptly locked the door. I just stood there jaw dropped and slightly heartbroken. I texted Billy letting him know of our predicament and walked back to my car. As i walked back i ran into one of my only otehr friends in daytona: Sally. We talked for a couple minutes and then went our seperate ways. I got to the bottom of the parking garage and handed the lady my parking ticket. I ended up having to pay $1.00! i was soo upset. I know that doesnt seem like much, but after wasting all that time and gas to drive out there, having to use my toll change to pay it and NOT getting the ice cream. It was pretty upsetting i promise. So i drove the 15 minute drive back to my house planning on stopping at Ritters on the way home since its right around the corner from my house.Ritters is usually open a bit later so i figured we'd be able to get ice cream there. As i pulled into the parking lot i noticed things were unusually dark. I check the clock, its only 10:20, i should be fine. So i get out and walk to the front of the place. They close at 10pm sSun-Thurs and at 10:30 Fri-Sat. So we missed out there too. Devistated andheartbroken we made plans for wednesday and then went home. On the drive home i noticed my car was acting weirder then usual. I already knew that the alignment was way off so the car pulls extremely hard to the right. So much so that if i let go of the wheel the car jerks almost as if someone is sitting in the passenger seat pulling the wheel down hard towards them. Anyways my new dilema is the car shakes violently. Almost as if i have a flat tie (which i dont, checked um all) I'm really worried about this too. I'm just waiting for soemthing to snap while im driving. Its so frustrating because i've needed a car for so long and now when i thinki finally have one its on the verge of dying.

Phew ok. Wow to think i wrote this all when i was laying down to sleep haha. Sorry about the length. I was just on a roll tonight and didnt really feel like shortening or splitting it into parts. If any of you made it through and reads this part, i will mail you a cookie. ;) Ja na